As I sit here just an hour before this project is due, I think of how typical this is of me to be leaving the most important things until last. I love to think of the bigger picture, the vision, the final ‘wow’ factor. But when it comes to the nitty gritty, the paperwork, the writing and the ‘extra bits’, I generally let myself down.
This project has been amazing in the sense that it has made me aware of the style of designer I am, and more broadly, the way I approach a task. My bigger picture view tends to lead to over-ambitiousness, and I become a bit of a monster to those close to me in trying to get things done (it’s the Shaper coming out in me…! It’s true, I’m evil!). I have been working around the clock to get this project finished, and granted I have had the most sleep I’ve ever had before a Design Studio project has been due (3 hours, a record!). But still, my general view on the final result is, I could have done more. I wonder why this is, as at the end of the day I’m not a perfectionist and I cut a lot of corners, so maybe it’s the guilt of cutting those corners rearing their ugly head.
Aside from this, I have learnt a lot about myself in terms of how I approach a task. When I first heard this brief, I was overwhelmed at the open-endedness of it – I work well within constraints, and was stumped as to what I was going to do. Subconsciously, I created my own constraints, which limited my fabric choice, my pattern construction, and hence, my designs. I rarely am able to get anything done if I don’t have some set of ‘rules’ even if self-imposed, as the scope of possibilities is way too big for my tiny mind to handle. I love to problem solve, I love a good puzzle, and I love conceptual thinking, and giving myself constraints really allows me to push my creativity and push myself in directions I never thought I would/could go, and to make garments I wouldn’t have otherwise thought of.
I have been pondering the question ‘What do I care about?’ for days now, and it’s such a massive area of thought, that I don’t know where to begin. Of course, my incredibly supportive family, friends and boyfriend, but that’s granted. I’m not particularly interested in money past the point of eating and being housed (I mean sure, we’d all love more, but it could never pass the importance of my loved ones). The environment, it’s obvious, particularly for a sustainability brief, but in the last five weeks I have really begun to change my though, literally Shift my values. I have attempted in this project to reduce my waste to nil – I didn’t quite make it, but I have a scrap bag that I have kept all my scraps in, and it’s about 100 grams, so I really did try to minimize my impact. In my day to day life, I have been so much more aware of the waste I am responsible for, and have tried to reduce it as much as possible. Being in fashion also makes me feel guilty for the amount of clothing waste there is. I know in the future I’m going to be a lot wearier about my fabric usage, the types of fabrics I use, and the amount of toiling that I do. In this project, I didn’t toile at all, which was a conscious choice, as I couldn’t imagine wasting that many metres of calico or other fabric for something that I would never use again. I don’t want to add to my calico toile pile that I can’t bear to throw away. But lastly, and most importantly, I care about people. I get very affected by the stories of hardship and poverty that are all around us. By the same token, I am very inspired by the people who actually make positive things happen by doing something about it. I am inspired by people who are proactively doing something to improve the quality of life for so many who are less fortunate. I think that we are in such a privileged position, that we owe it to society to also try to help in any small way.
In retrospect, I’m glad I’ve left my design philosophy until the end. Looking back at my process and research, I’ve had a long time to reflect on what’s important to me as a person and a designer, and how SHIFT has affected my way of thinking. This project has been incredible in opening my eyes to who I am, and what I care about. Things I have never quantified before.
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